Tonight I'm gonna save myself
what's left in the bottle and drink it tomorrow.
I'm exactly where I want me, happy, hollow.
floating on the river of death downstream,
living in the moment, hoping another will follow, yes!
these are the best of times, the worst of times
the end of my youth, the thirsty times.
blue smirnoff, brain cells seared off,
until I jump over the moon like nursery rhymes.
I hear voices, wake up destroyed
my head spinning like a piece of shit spinning down the toilet.
toast to my health til my health's toast itself,
a toast to tomorrow when I start making some better choices.
...don't wait up for me.
the view up here is lovely in all of its subtlety.
suddenly, like a change of the channel,
back crawling in my shadow,
it's been Groundhog Day all month for me.
as a youth, every day a new discovery.
a magnum opus of random moments,
til I stopped gaining ground and began to lose focus,
burning under a sun that never sets from neurosis.
unhealthy, needed something to un-melt me
stopped feeling sorry for myself and got the cold shoulder.
me and the hair of the dog, playing red rover,
until I get sober and save myself.